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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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Unbeautiful.Paint your sad face,
Love the shine your hair reflects in this light.

Smell your bubble gum perfume,
Feel so pretty-
Untouchable.

Like the girls in those magazines,

Don't think,
About last night-
When your finger reached the bottom of your throat.

Of how it made you cry.

Think of how low your weight is,
How cold it is.

Feel beautiful.

Paint your nails-
Black and blue.

Make them match you.

Put some eyelashes on,
Smile sadly.

Wish you could be-
A natural beauty.

Cover your tears,
With a knife and some scars.

Pick up some dirty habits-
Whisper for another cigar.

Get drunk,
Fall down.

Be beautiful,
Let them have their w

Imaginary Friend.We can play a game...
Barbies or even a game of chalked hop-scotch.

We'll close our eyes,
Bid this world a lovely good bye.

Laugh and giggle,
Kicking our little feet-
We'll play a game,
In this poorly built tree of green.

We'll get poison oak-
Have to wear oven mittens to keep from picking at ourselves.

We'll whisper all the time-
Laughing about nothing at all.

We'll wonder if the world is flat-
If the ocean falls into blackness after that.

We'll be happy-
Knowing nothing but ourselves,
That we're friends forever...

That you'll never dissapear.

We'll play pretend,
Loving that this world is round after all...
That we won't

Be Something.Save a life,
Don't go out.

Put on that super mask-
Paint some muscles upon yourself.

Be someone,
More than nothing.

Whisper that life has its downs,
That nobody is just ordinary.

Everyone has a story,
A wish to be something more...

Nobody is whom they seem,
Not even the reflection that watches you want to leave...

Nobody knows,
Whom you are-
Whom you really want to be.

Nothing is like you,
Beautiful like you-
Breathes like you.

Is you..

So smile-
Play your guitar,
Turn some music up-

Bang your head against that imaginairy wall.

Escape from life's hindering thinking box,
Do your dance-
Jump up and down,
Spin around...

Maybe.Who's the stupid one afterall?

They tell me I'm smart-
That I'm good after all...

It makes me feel good,
Makes happy tears threaten my eyes.

How I want it to be the truth-
To be more than who I am right now.

To not have to weigh myself every night..
To cry silently-
Just wanting to die..

I don't wanna fight-
I'm fucking tired of this life.

Of feeling so selfish-
So lost in another's lovely light.

I'm a shadow in disguise,
Watching the grass grow greener as I sigh...

I'm giving up,
And thinking this might be my pathetic goodbye...

To Whom It May Concern..Don't you see?
What you've done to me..

You've hurt me so deeply-
So much I can't bare to see,
What stares back at me,
In this dirty reflection called myself.

You forced me to-
Lock my dreams away,
Making me feel dirty for wanting something for myself.

You make me cry myself to sleep-
Make me wrench my tears,
I feel so weak.

Hating you so,
Just wishing to go..
Be nothing more.

I just wish..
You'd open your eyes,
Just realize-
How much you fucking hurt me.

Why can't you just love me?
Stop cussing about how you hate my hair,
About how I'm gonna fail this year.

I just want some love-
To know that I'm not a stupid failure

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You'll Be Washed Away By Labor Day.

by =XxSilent-xXx-SirenxX, Aug 17, 2012, 10:59:40 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Crouched down in warm wind,
I felt ocean mist trying to put out my fire like sins.

I used my fingers,
Because the rocks were to hot-
And the woods nearby looked suspiciously alive.

I watched my toes wiggle into a wet spot,
And grimaced at my cold thoughts.

Our love was a ripped map,
Missing the center.

We were lost.

An ugly 'X' marked our ending destination,
Dripping coffee stains made a trail of lies and deceit.

A foreign vanilla perfume wafted off your favorite suit's sleeves-
I bought it on our honey moon.

I guessed you bought her there too.

Inhaling the salty wind-
And wondering to no end.

I wrote your name in the sand,
And threw your grandmother's ring into the angry ocean.